I hate the idea of being forced to go to school only to learn things I will forget the moment I finish 4 years later, waste of time.
I hate the idea of taking out a student loan I will be paying off well into my 30's or 40's
I also hate the idea of doing nothing with my life, which is what Ive been doing since the day I was born.
society dictates I pay an enormous amount I can't possibly afford for education, in the HOPES that I MAY find a job that pays good enough to pay off those loans and actually have money left over after rent, gas, bills etc.
I wouldn't even consider a serious relationship until I had a stable income, a car, a place of my own etc. it only makes sense that I would need the ability to support another person. but that also means I will be alone until I have that.
Im behind everyone I know in every way I can think of because I don't want to do things the way the world tells me I have to. but now I have to, even if it means being miserable, even if it means feeling like a slave, like I'm doing something pointless and stupid.
I have to do it because my dreams are too big to do nothing, and my talent is too small to do what I love. maybe before I die I can complete a dream or two, or at least find joy somewhere.